Working on a project of a Lifetime is quite difficult.
The challenge to document the process of growing into the person we want to become, just like anything else, has ups and downs.

Sometimes it just flows out of my mind, I speak my heart and it’s as easy as that.
Sometimes I can’t even look at the keyboard without disgust.
“If I have to fill another page about what I’ve done, I’m gonna tear my hair out“

That’s how it felt like for a while now.

It’s hard, because I feel like I owe you to show that things are under control, that you can do whatever you want. It feels like I fail everyone by not writing things down.
The difficulties, the experiences, the outcomes.

Life was full of these during the previous months, but barely anything made it to the blog.
The pressure just kept growing with every unwritten idea or thought.

I had a short vacation around the Netherlands – A friend of mine kidnapped me to have some fun. I had everything I could ever ask for during that time. The title was: “A Taste of Life”, yet it haven’t ended up to become a story to inspire anyone.

I spent 3 weeks in Hungary, mostly being quarantined, yet I still had some time for a little sightseeing and exploring, while a Dutch friend of mine accompanied me.
I had the chance to see another City and wander around with my Family. They were just too happy to see me. The distance between my old friends and me grew with every step I made towards my ultimate goal and destiny:

To show people that everything is possible, and it’s worth to chase our dreams.

How do I do that without making the process visible here?
How do I prove it to someone who has nothing but self-doubt that learning a language is possible, even if you have 0 sense for it; that you can train your body and become fit enough to look in the mirror every day and be proud of what you’ve achieved; that you can make that trip you’ve been dreaming about to finally immerse in that culture and get a taste of how it feels like to live in that place.

That’s what I want to spend my Life on. To carve a path through uncertainty, so that others can follow without falling into the same traps, without making the same mistakes.
From a poor background with limited options, to a world of achieved dreams and countless possibilities.

There are so many things I want to show you.
To the faithless, to the doubter, to the fearful.
If you could just get a glimpse of how much is actually possible for you, it wouldn’t take long until you wanted to give it a shot too.
I want to be a human Guinea pig. Jump head first into all the crazy things a mind can conceive, and see where it leads. Shoot into space and write a report from a place no one has ever explored or seen.

Because, you see, if there is one example that someone made it – then you can do it too.
How many times did it happen already, when you were sure that a thing will never work out, and yet it did.
Whether by a coincidence, luck or sheer power of will. From then on, you had a little more faith.
“Maybe it happens again with another thing.” And it does, inevitably. The more things I can show you along the way, the less doubt there’ll be to weight you down as you think about your dreams every evening – until a no turns into a maybe, a maybe into a possibly, and a possibly into a surely.

This is all I want to achieve with this journey.
Let the challenge be mental, physical, social, financial or spiritual – being fairly good in all these at once is more than possible.
Especially today, when we can access the lessons of decades in a matter of minutes, all the things we need to begin is withing reach; literally at our fingertips – We just need to click.

This post was meant to give an update on what’s going on currently.
The blog will stay alive for all the upcoming adventures and difficulties, and there’ll be many many years we can spend together exploring the depths of the World, with a touch of silliness and a truckload of bravery.

May you have a wonderful day,
Erik

“Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way
to succeed is always to try just one more time.”

– Thomas Edison

2020.03.28 – Day 432