How can you LOVE and HATE something at the same time?

This problem occurs quite often throughout our lives.
Let it be the person we love, a habit we want to get rid of, or a harmful hobby we enjoy.
You know you shouldn’t eat that entire box of ice cream you just bought, but it still ends up in your stomach.
You know the new episodes of your favorite show are 10/10 ones, so you watch them all at once and regret it when you’re done.
You know the hangover is going to mess you up, but the feeling of a cold beer sliding down your throat is just phenomenal.

Relatable?

Writing can be just like that.

I’ve heard it many times from famous authors:
“Writers are masochists”
“Only choose writing as an occupation if you’re madly in love with suffering”
“We [writers] are willing to do anything just to avoid writing”

If you’ve ever wanted to put something beautiful on paper, but it didn’t even come close to the feeling you wanted to convey, you know what I mean.

So why are we still doing it?

Because the World is never the same once a good story has been added to it.

All the beautiful pages you create one after the other, soaked with meaning, dripping in emotion.
Every moment spent on finding the right words feels like heaven, the satisfaction after a finished sentence caresses your soul like the hand of a lover. The edited paragraphs relax you like a warm shower, and the second you publish your work it feels like you’ve tossed the heaviest stone off your shoulder.

But we also struggle. When the fingers hover above the letters, when the pen leaves no ink on the paper.
When a sentence just won’t become a perfect circle. When we’re seemingly limited by our language and its expression, or when we finally find that fitting synonym, but the picture still feels incomplete.

I wish it wasn’t so hard to begin. To keep going. To finish, to edit.
I wish it would last longer. The research. The thrill. The story and the keyboard’s music.

It’s a bless and a curse, and the latter is the reason we can appreciate the former.

Giving birth is one of the most painful things that can happen to a human being, but how wonderful life can be after you’ve gone through it? In the end, when you hold your baby, see that smile, hear it giggling– you’ll know that every second of the painful laboring was worth it – more than anything.

To those who struggle with writing, please remember:
Put your thoughts on paper. Even if it’s messy, difficult or straight up terrible; because every word brings you closer to share something beautiful with the World.

Use your gifts, fellow writers. That’s why we are here on Earth.

“The worst thing you write is better than the best thing you’ve never written.”